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Friday, June 7, 2013

Poets and Cars/Cars, Cows, and Girls

Hayden Carruth (1921-2008)
Friend of the blog, Troy L., contributes today's entry (and the post's title) to our summer series, "Drivers Ed... For Poets." It's a poem by Hayden Carruth, surely the greatest poet ever produced by Waterbury, Connecticut. You can hear Carruth read it here. The Independent did a good piece on the poet and his lifelong struggle with mental illness. (See also Carruth's "Fragments of an Autobiography" from the excellent prose collection, Suicides & Jazzers.)

The Cows at Night

The moon was like a full cup tonight,
too heavy, and sank in the mist
soon after dark, leaving for light

faint stars and the silver leaves
of milkweed beside the road,
gleaming before my car.

Yet I like driving at night
in summer and in Vermont:
the brown road through the mist

of mountain-dark, among farms
so quiet, and the roadside willows
opening out where I saw

the cows. Always a shock
to remember them there, those
great breathings close in the dark.

I stopped, and took my flashlight
to the pasture fence. They turned
to me where they lay, sad

and beautiful faces in the dark,
and I counted them–forty
near and far in the pasture,

turning to me, sad and beautiful
like girls very long ago
who were innocent, and sad

because they were innocent,
and beautiful because they were
sad. I switched off my light.

But I did not want to go,
not yet, nor knew what to do
if I should stay, for how

in that great darkness could I explain
anything, anything at all.
I stood by the fence. And then

very gently it began to rain.

(Special note for Omi: Photo is of Hayden Carruth, not Troy.)

1 comment:

  1. Not a photo of Troy.....yet!

    Beautiful, heartbreaking poem...